oct 18
this, that, and the other thing

Well, I found a job. I'm now working tech support for an internet provider once again. Though this time it's a different internet provider. Training starts tomorrow.

And I'm single... I think my brain is finally wrapping itself around that fact. Only been 2 weeks... and I finally accept it. Tim's not going to change his mind. I'm still hoping that Gina will. But I need to let go. I've accepted that much at least. Now if I can get myself to do it I'll be in good shape.

Nicki's been writing. It's because her isp went down and now she's getting configuration files from me (heh I hope that doesn't happen to me or I'll be forced to talk to steve), or at least that's the excuse. So far it hasn't been a problem, though lately I've come to the conclusion that I really don't know why I dated her in the first place. I was in lust I guess. I have a habit of doing that. But 20/20 hindsight just makes me ask, "Why?"

I've been hanging out on this personals site, webpersonals. Originally I intended to just use the women only section but it was so quiet and since it costs money to initiate conversation I went and made some ads in the straight area. Predictably I'm getting a lot of response. Just as predictably, I suppose, I'm hearing from a lot of people who are more than twice my age, despite the fact that my ad says "no one over 30" on it. Generally I could care less about age when it comes to friends or people I meet in person, but meeting someone online... I just don't want to be someone's answer to a midlife crisis. No one seems to want to respect that though. It's really quite frustrating. So I try to block them from me and of course that feature of the site doesn't work right all the time so I just have to ignore them.

But I have met a couple of guys there I'd kind of like to meet. I was going to meet one for lunch tomorrow but I kind of went and got employed. So I wrote him an email telling him some other time. I haven't heard from him in a few days. No big deal; I need to really watch myself right now or I'll do something stupid and hurt someone. Maybe me, maybe someone else. I don't know. I just know I need to be careful.

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