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nov 1
night of the living red

Life is weird.

This probably isn't news to most of you but dammit, I'm going to say it anyway.

Stay with me now while I delve into someone else's life for a moment.

we're going to talk about Jon. Jon has this thing for his friend Jen. Jen is in a relationship but supposedly it's an open relationship so theoretically she and her boyfriend can date outside of the relatinoship withoutu problem. Except she was freaking out last night when her boyfriend went to a halloween party with some chick he wanted to screw and she wanted jon to herself to snuggle. Now is it just me or does this seem like a double standard to anyone else? IMO she needs to either break up with this guy or start talking to him and change the rules of their relationship. Until then, she's poison. I told this to jon and he sees my point and theoretically he's going to back off until she knows what the fuck she's doing.

Then it occurred to me that I was giving relationship advice to someone I was lying naked in bed with and it seemed just a little strange.

Predictably he wants us both in bed at the same time but after meeting her last night I know damn well it'll never happen. Theoretically she's bi but I don't get that vibe off her. Bi or not if the three of us were to get together I can tell that she'd start to get jealous of jon & I were to start anything. On top of all that I'm not the least bit attracted to her... she's pretty but I think this whole fucked relationship thing is completely removing any attraction I may have had anyway.

BTW, if you get the chance to see John carpenter's Vampires in the theater, don't. It's not worth it. Video maybe. Maybe. There were some great lines (and of coursre it had the added bonus of having Sheryl Lee in it but she didn't have nearly a big enough part) but the vampires had no personality whatsoever and that disturbed me a great deal. And I'm disturbed enough already.

I still need to figure out what to do with myself. Spending time with Jon is a blast but I know it's not going to be anything permanant. I don't know how long it'll be before I'll want someone a little more sensative outside of the bedroom. Tim's backing off a bit now, more for himself than for me, since I am involved now. Then there's Jason... I havent heard from him in a couple of weeks. He's a couple hours' drive away but DAMN he's cute. And we get along well.. we do have to meet at some point. Though I'm accomplishing my short term goal, which is to have fun. I guess that's what's important.

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