7 july

Some people believe there is one person out there for them... their soulmate. "The One." Whatever.

I don't believe that anymore.

I defnately used to... I used to believe there was one soulmate for every person and if you found that one person, well, you were extremely lucky and set for life, and if you didn't, well, then you were like most people. I didn't have any delusions that the soulmate had to be someone of the opposite gender, but I still thought there was one person out there for everyone.

I don't believe that anymore.

I don't know when it was that I stopped believing it, but I think it was not too long after I graduated high school... probably around the same time I really started to allow my feelings for women to surface. Polyamory blatantly defies that "soulmate" theory, at any rate, though I tend to waffle between polyamory and monogamy.

Lately (for most of the time that I've been with Jon), it's been monogamy but I think I'm starting to slip back towards polyamory and at any rate, I don't think there's just one soulmate anymore.

I think I'm compatable with far more people than that.

My view of the universe has been expanding a bit anyway... I guess my views on what a soulmate have reflected that a bit. More and more I'm starting to think about the theories of multiple universes, an infinate number of them all different, each one reflecting the results of a different choice made. And I think I'm happy in a lot of them. Not all of them, mind you... I'm sure in some I eventually married Steve and might have even finally killed myself by now. But in others I left Jon when the whole thing with Jen was going on and I went back to Tim and Gina, and I'm happy in those.

I'm definately happy in the one this consciousness is in, at any rate.

I still don't like tech support, but aside from the nature of my job and the fact that I go around feeling fat half the time, I think I'm pretty damn happy where I am. But I don't think Jon is "the one..." a soulmate, most definately. But I think there's more than just one.

Especially when I've been craving the touch of a woman again lately. :)

But you know what? I don't need it... I'm still happy with just Jon.


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